Monday, August 1, 2011

skinny

Has anyone read the book Skinny by Ibi something-or-another? If so I hope you found it as inspiring as I did. I felt as if I knew what her life was like. The only time I see ana is when I catch a glimpse of myself. But she tiranga look like me. No, she's skinny, she's happy, she's older and she can say and do what she wants. If I told anyone this they would call me insane but I hope I can trust you, my beautiful followers, to keep my ugly secrets safe and secret.

Are any of you bulimic? I would love to know. I'm struggling with knowing what to do. The last few days whenever I would eat id just count the calories and say in my head too much, too much. Then I would excuse myself. Go shower and without even thinking I vomited. I didn't stick stuff down my throat. I just pushed it back up. Am I on the road to bulimia? I dont know. I just do it and don't think, its like I'm being controlled. And forced. Maybe its ana telling me to stop eating. Or maybe its mia pushing herself into my life. I just font know.

Intake:

Dinner 250
Snacks 400
Drinks 160
Total 810

Fml I am going to die.
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3 comments:

  1. AnonymousAugust 4, 2011 at 5:46 AM

    Hey dear, thanks for the comment it was really sweet okay so thats not neccicarily bulimia you have to shove something down your throat for it to count? I am bulimic have been ednos for four years now don't make yourself puke sucks ass I can't stop and my throat hurts all the time one day my esophagus might errupt, anyway I need A texting buddy to keep me on track and away from food so I you text alot text me sometime (812-821-5352) I really need help not puking lol and btw your blogs pretty awesome too

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  2. Skinny HipsAugust 4, 2011 at 7:49 AM

    Hey I am going through the same thing atm would be good to have someone to talk too. :)

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  3. RunAugust 4, 2011 at 5:19 PM

    I flip between binge/purge episodes then severely restricting/purging to... Well whatever lol. The joys of eating disorders right?

    I don't put anything down my throat either but I have been purging too many years.

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