Is it bad that I enjoyed today? Usually ana doesn't let me feel happy unless I succeed on a fast or loose weight. It felt odd to be happy go lucky again. Even if it was only for a day. It felt as of I was full of hot air and I was floating away. I thought I was going crazy. Is that abnormal?
So a charter school just opened up close to me. I really want to go but I really want to go to the normal school too. Here's some pros and cons:
Charter pros:
- it has college credits for eighth graders.
- it has cool classes like yoga and rugby instead of plain gym.
- my best friend is going there.
- fresh start.
- I can be known as a skinny girl.
Charter cons:
- my brother would be in the same school.
- my other best friend won't be there.
- I'm fat
- I know practically no one who is going there.
- I'm scared ill have to wear a uniform.
Normal pros:
- one of my best friends goes there.
- I know almost everybody.
- I already signed up for classes there.
- they have the most cute guy I've ever know going there.
- I love it.
Normal cons:
- they know me as a fat kid.
- the classes and teachers suck.
- required gym until highschool
- they make you buy or bring a lunch.
- one of my teachers from last year id suspicious.
So there you have it. I am torn. Maybe ill meet a fellow anoretic if I go to PMS( that's the charter schools initials :D
). I really hope I do. Any opinions on which I should go to? I'm completely open and can't decide. Help?
Oh, and I almost forgot. BEST INTAKE EVER(THIS WEEK)! I had a total of three hundred twenty calories! Yay! One point for me, and four pounds lost since Tuesday. I'm now eighty eight again. :D my moms scale id broken, so I need a way to buy my own without my parents knowing. Any thoughts? I have money. About two hundred dollars worth. But id prefer to use less. Any really good scale brands you know of that are relatively small?
Xoxoxoxo,
Alice
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